Getting out of your own way
In these darker, colder months of the year, there seems to be lots of time for reflection. I’ve been thinking about people’s desire to embrace ‘new year, new you’ and the way that this can be approached in our current world
I retreat in the first months of the year. Whilst I am in retreat, I haven’t stopped growing; growing my roots and establishing a firm foundation to move forward when the energy rises again in spring. Something that can occur when we move inwards to grow is that we meet our obstacles. When we give our attention to our inner world, we realise the impact of the obstacles we experience and that just avoiding them in busy everyday life is holding us back from moving towards our best selves. I wonder if this sounds familiar to anyone?
A few years ago, at the beginning of my journey with crystals, I created a situation for myself that left me very stuck. It came out of motherly love and (what I believed to be) responsibility but I was the only person in the situation who suffered and it took its toll. The problem with obstacles that make us feel stuck is that we can’t find a way out. I couldn’t see… I was trapped… It was impossible... These were my truths.
At that time, I was getting to know the energy of Citrine. It was a crystal that I loved and still do. I love its optimism, how confident it makes me feel, how energising it can be. So when it sat me down and had a no-nonsense ‘talk’ with me, I was surprised, to say the least!
Citrine enabled me to understand that I had created the obstacle I perceived. I was stuck because I was getting in my own way – there was no obstacle but me! This way of looking at the situation was both shocking and enlightening. I was the problem. My belief that it was my job to find a solution to a challenge that involved others meant that I stopped anyone else having to solve it. The only solution was my self-sacrifice, I thought and this wasn’t true.
This inner shift led to a chain-reaction of events which culminated in the path being completely cleared for me to move forward with my life in every way. It was that dramatic.
If you have been reflecting on your path through life and you feel stuck, can’t see the way, feel as though there are obstacles at every turn, I invite you to bring Citrine into your world. Carry it, wear it, meditate with it. You might be surprised at the shift you feel. It only takes a tiny nudge to get a ball rolling. It only takes a change of perspective to change everything about how you see the world. And if you know that you get in your own way, ask Citrine to help you to step in a different direction and allow the energy to flow towards joy and abundance in the coming year.
